Thursday, January 21, 2010
hmm. yesterday i realised something about myself.
i need space. lots of it.
and no, i dont mean physically! -.-'''
but in friendships or relationships. that kind of space.
i cant survive if everyone starts crowding into my life, asking me many questions.
it scares me and at the same time suffocates me.
i'm not the person who is able to pour out my whole heart to the world.
i'm not the kind to be able to carry long conversations for days.
i just am not capable of doing that.
i try, but i struggle so much, i get annoyed with myself.
sometimes i say one thing and people think i mean another.
most of the times, i just have nothing to say!!
so i just keep quiet.
but then that leads to much misunderstanding...
i guess that's why i kinda lost it last night.
and to the person involved, i'm sorry.
i may not be the perfect person, and i dont want to be one, but at least i'm real. 100%
furball + 1:50:00 PM
